Why then are my teeth clenched in exasperation as I chase a tiny bead around with an unseen hole and anxiously coax it onto the pin, my shaky hand is holding? I become frustrated with my focus as my depth perception changes the entry point. I then begin to notice that my back hurts from sitting, my jaw aches from clenching and all the voices of doubt come tumbling down around me. "I don't have enough supplies to reach my goal. How will I make enough money to support myself and pay my bills? Will anyone really like these? Some of these are too heavy, too big, not the right colors. I hope they don't break. Who will work the fair with me? What if no one shows up? Look what I'm doing to Dewey. I'm irresponsible. I should stop and go get a real job. The house needs to be cleaned, laundry is piling up and I haven't even brushed my teeth yet..."
Even with all my transformational work about gratitude and self-awareness, the ugly voices of the monkey mind chatter haunt me and beat me up. There hasn't been one person who has said my Be Bling Hair Jewelry is ugly. Women love to try them on and many are purchased. Guys have enjoyed them, too! The coaching that I am able to do inside the booth is a gift and leads to great conversations and cross-selling opportunities that include my book, giving me their e-mail address as I build my date base and sharing other ways I can help them like my walking program.
I stop and I breathe in a controlled yoga manner. I place my left hand over my heart in self-love. With my right hand I take my thumb and place it over my right nostril and exhale out my left nostril. As that breath is released so is the stress and worry that I am carrying and also creating. Now, I continue the exercise with my middle finger over my left nostril as I inhale through my right nostril. I continue this breathing pattern until my heart rate slows down and my anxiousness dissipates as I remind myself of my fortune and let go of the fear.
I really am in a state of bliss! Oh yeah! Amazing how quickly I forget...
Today my checking account is overdrawn and I want beading supplies.
Still... I am in a state of bliss!
I am at the beginning. I published my book on May 14th. Not even six weeks ago. I am learning, growing, excelling, teaching, coaching, enhancing and improving as I go. It does not have to be perfect! I can edit along the way. I have created my own web site and have turned my book into another format as I increase my audience. I have conceptualized many marketing ideas and have had gifts fall from the sky with partnerships to increase the awareness of my book and increase sales.
I am at the beginning. My world is shifting. My friends and family are there to support me and encourage me. They are not my customers. I will not market to them. I will however come up with some compelling verbiage to ask them to share my information.
Thursday a mentor and fellow coach who trains at the Heal Your Life Conference with Louise Hay in September, called and offered to sell my book on her table at this event. She reviewed my book and had very positive feedback. This is the beginning of a new and exciting relationship that I have the opportunity to follow up on and learn from.
Friday I sold my first five books to a bookstore! My first wholesale transaction. I feel like such a professional. Randomly as I searched my phone for events near me that might offer venues for selling my book and hair jewelry I came across a training program that was held at a Spiritual Center in Fallbrook. When I called them to learn more about the training she became interested in my book and hair jewelry. Met with her later in the day and voila, a new relationship has been formed. Gotta love life when one pays attention!
I am in a state of bliss!
So are you!!!
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